I find it interesting that those who know me, know that every morning is a good morning.
My greeting every day is “morning”. With wheelbarrows full of enthusiasm.
So the morning that has a greeting of a mellow “morning” draws questions.
What's wrong? What's going on?
A lot is wrong right now. I'm discontent. I'm unsettled. I'm questioning. I'm planning. I'm wondering. I'm jammed up.
I'm upside down.
I welcome the change in my life. It makes me reevalutate the structure I have created and those things I have decieded are important to me. Is the structure practical? Am I able to flex it? Do I even want to? How important are those things? Both physical and emotional. How much can I let go? What is not negotiable?
These review times seem to happen around the time Bella's human goes on vacation so I end up doing my reevaluation in a place that is not my home. Which helps to take me outside of myself and brings a different perspective. I get to take my coffee, ice cream, or pudding outside to the patio and sit in a chair in the sunshine. Sunshine is good for my soul.
On the docket for review this time around?
How important is it that I stay Salt Lake City?
How tied to my job am I?
What do I really want out of my life?
What is the best occupation to attain the best life I can have?
How much of my stuff is excess?
If there is a lot of excess, am I ready to get rid of it now? If no, why not?
As a nasty bonus, I'm feeling creatively blocked up. I'll be taking my camera and notebook to hopefully work some of it out. And a plus, she has a treadmill so I'll also be able to sweat it inside while it's cold and uncomfortable outside.
On a side note, I am so ready for summer. So. Very. Ready.