I can't get over it. A huge part of me just wants to move there. I can't stop thinking about what life would be like there.
Of course, in my mind it's romanticized and perfect.
Though I've moved away from 'home' before and I know what it's like.
Part of me feels like this is my chance, this is the point in my life where I take that big risk. Do something gutsy.
Besides, if I don't like it, I can always move back.
And why do I want to move there anyway? It's busy and loud and dirty.
I've talked before about the individuality I felt there. Is it because I don't feel like I have that individuality here?
If I can find the satisfaction I'm looking for in Salt Lake City, can I find it in New York? Or anywhere else?
Am I running from something? Hiding from something I can't fix?
What is the need to have a new start?
Have I only outgrown the experiences I can have here?
Do I just need to travel more? Or, if I travel and see new places, will I become more unsettled?
It's been suggested that I visit before I move. Which I agree with. Flights are cheap. And worth the expense.
But that doesn't answer the questions. Why am I so fixated on moving?