Y'know, my world has been involved in some upheaval. And I'm having trouble recovering. I find myself mostly just trying to survive it all.
Day in and day out.
Just trying to make it through the day to the end.
When I can go home.
And change into comfy clothes.
And then sleep it all off.
So I can make it through then next day.
I find, that right now, I don't have the energy to make plans. And I'm a planner. I didn't used to be. But I am now. I have the need to create direction. Or find it. And have a goal. With a reward at the end. And right now, I'm having trouble thinking past the weekend into next week. It's becoming a bit frustrating.
Which of course creates more stress and induces more sleeping. Argh!
But here's the deal. I'll survive these few weeks while things are all askew. I'll focus on a few small things. Like doing the dishes and doing 4 weeks worth of laundry in one day.
Which, by the way, makes me grateful I have that many clothes and options so I can procrastinate the washing of it.
I've been so long with no social calendar that when a small one finally develops, it upsets my lazy procrastinating time. Which, when I don't want to do the laundry, but I have to because I need something to wear tonight and I don't want to go out and buy a new outfit because I just found out I have to PAY taxes this year and it's the week to pay rent and the phone bill and I really need to buy milk too and make spaghetti sauce because I need something to eat next week because I'm tired of eating out and tired of spending the money because I'm trying to pay off the stupid credit card except I want more shoes! It can cause quite a problem.
I should really just shut up and do the laundry.